【Elsanna】If you know better


*原作亲情向
*短


1.


    那只是个意外。

    她怀中的Anna紧闭双眼，散发出迥于酣眠的冰冷气息。
    “No.”Elsa用下颌抵上妹妹额头。一声巨响划过空气，紧接着父母从撞开的大门外飞奔而来。
    “Elsa, what have you done? This is getting out of hand!”
    “It was an accident…I'm sorry, Anna.”
    Elsa闭上嘴，将紧抱在怀里的Anna递给母后，对方立时抽了口凉气：“She's ice cold.”侧脸贴着Anna的母后眨了两三次眼。Elsa垂下视线。
    “I know where we have to go.”
    她被父亲抱上白马，一家四口在缀满繁星的夜空下疾驰。Elsa松开马鬃，感到寒冷正顺着指尖向外扩散。
    “Please...Help! My daughter!”
    但她即刻被抱下马背。Elsa屏住呼吸，跟在父王身后捏着双手走近那片卧满圆石的空地。当这些注入生命的石像张开双眼看她时，Elsa将脸埋进母后的裙摆。

    “You are lucky it wasn't her heart.”
    那具最为年老的石像抚着Anna的头，从她前额处取出些许冰蓝晶体并将之凝聚成影像。走上前的Elsa睁大眼睛，那些姊妹间的真挚回忆正鲜活地呈现在她面前。
    “I recommended we remove all magic...But don't worry, I'll leave the fun.”
    “But she won't remember I have powers?”
    她感觉到寒冷，从后方伸手的父王搂着她肩膀。
    “It's for the best.”

    Elsa看着掌心。

    “But it was just an accident...”

    但已没人听她辩解。


2.


    响起了敲门声。

    Elsa皱着眉头，露出埋在膝盖中的脸：说不定是恶作剧，她暗自想着，让我吃早饭？可我刚进完餐不久。
    她在窗边坐了一会儿，才慢慢从皮垫上爬下去。不知自何时起，她习惯在窗前入眠，于那片醒着的天空下做梦。
    门外的人又敲了两下。

    “Who's there?”
    “Oh, It's me, your nanny.”
    那道刻意压低的童音极具辨识度。果然是Anna。Elsa闭上眼叹气，在原地缓慢地转圈。
    “What's wrong,nanny?”
    “I'm here to bring your breakfast, princess Elsa.”
    “You've send it for me half an hour ago...Forgotten yet, nanny?”

    Elsa停下脚步，伸出双手抚平裙摆上的褶皱。当她准备返回窗前时，面前的木门再次被敲响。
    “I'm not hungry.”
    “No dear, There's your sweet mom.”
    还是扮保姆来得像。Elsa揉了揉肚子，自唇角牵出一丝微笑。
    “Then thanks for your coming.”
    “It's not a big deal, honey...May I come in?”
    “No.”Elsa轻摇着头：“And I think you should go. Thanks for everything...Goodbye, Anna. ”

    于是她离开木门，走向笼罩着晨光的窗扇——那就像瞬间飘过一片纯白落叶，Elsa爬上窗台，为发现第一抹冬雪的痕迹而欣喜若狂。

    “Do you want to build a snowman?Come on let's go and play...”

    然而失望紧接着淹没了蓝眸中的星光。Elsa捂住耳朵，却仍无法阻止那承载期望的歌声——那只是个意外，Elsa摊开双掌，我能控制好这力量，这就来试试。
    她四处张望，最后将视线定格在花瓶上——她最喜欢的花瓶，此刻将成为检验自己掌控力的替代品。Elsa在心里默念着绝不失败，并止不住想象起打开房门对Anna微笑的幸福的自己……“啪！！”这清脆的声响将她拉回现实。Elsa颤抖着双手捡起散落一地的陶瓷碎片，感到心里的某种东西也随之破碎并消散。
    于是她再次走向木门。


3.


    “Go away,Anna.”
    “What...”
    “Go away, or I'll tell others.”
    Anna眨了下眼睛，从地上爬起来。
    “But I just want to play...”
    “Go play by yourself.”

    她因话语里从未含有的冷漠而颤抖，Anna无法相信门后站着她直到两个月前还顽皮又热情的那个姐姐。
    “Won't you come with me...?”
    “Never.”
    Anna猛地打了个寒噤。她想直接穿过门去确认对方的身份——那些曾经温暖的记忆的主角，真的是门内的这个人吗？如果是的话，她……她们，究竟为何突然变得像现在这样？
    她怕一生都得不到答案。

    “Let's go to play, Elsa. PLEASE.”
    “THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE. Anna, the only thing you can do is leave.”

    “Why do you shut me out...?”

    Anna抚着门板，吐出细弱的询问。她约略觉得自己听见了叹息，紧接着那道毫无温情可言的回答声再一次响起。
    “I'm trying to protect you, Anna. I may hurt you.”
    “You are my sister. You will never hurt me.”

    “No, I will. And I have done it.”

    Anna眨着眼睛。
    “What happend?”
    “...Nothing. None of your business.”

    “But...”
    她想着，如果自己能像姐姐那么聪明，兴许就能找到更好的方法问出原因。
    “But you and me, weee...”

    “Not WE... now.It's just me. Just... I know better.”

    那扇门始终没有打开。Anna将自己缩在门角，感到某种温热的东西自面颊滑落。


    If you know better, why won't you let me understand?


 ——Fin——